Fear. We are all born with it. Some of us are born afraid. Others, like me, don’t find out the true meaning of fear until we have children. Prior to having my boys, the only real fear I had was probably never finding my true self (oh and something happening to those I love), however, I was in control and most of all, CONFIDENT and full of common sense (you go to bed at 1am, you sleep until 1pm the next day. That’s how it works- law of physics).

After you have children that control is lost forever and your common sense becomes a struggle for daily survival (YOU go to bed at 1am, your children are still going to get up at 6. Law of physics part II…and a quest for your children to slowly, but surely, run you down into submission). As for fear, it’s something that has totally changed for me.  Pre-boys, I wasn’t afraid of that funny looking man hanging around on the corner. Post-boys, that man becomes John Wayne Gacy and I’m afraid. Very afraid. I’m afraid that if I lose sight of my boys, something dreadful is going to happen to them and that is most certainly no way to live….for as soon as they left my body, me part II became an entity in their own right and the struggle for independance a race to be won.

Ah well, one good thing about fear is I save it all for my kids. Which means I have none left over to stand in the way of my photography business. I’m excited, for all the right reasons. Because this just FEELS right.  So, I guess I have my boys to thank. Because their quest for independance and a place in this world has given me the confidence to turn my life around and take charge of my dreams, finding my own pleasures in life….through a lens of course.

-L 

  • Andrea1 April, 2007 - 22:15

    Well, I have to say that although I’m sure it’s nice that it feels right to start the business, it also kind of helps that YOU HAVE SO MUCH FRIKIN TALENT!!
    Ahem. I’ll go blow smoke elsewhere now.

So, I’ve had the week off to spring clean. RRRIIIIGGGGHHHT.  I think I’ve developed canker sores on my backside from sitting at the computer for so long.  Getting a photography business going isn’t for the faint-of-heart. It’s nice to finally get down and dirty for something I truly have a passion for,  as opposed to doing it because I HAVE to do it.  The rewards, well they are endless..and VERY self-fulfilling. 

The saying goes, stop and smell the roses and I take that very much to heart these days. Because without taking that moment to smell those roses, you continue on in that monotonous, one toned world without really enjoying it’s beauty.  But no, I didn’t really see or appreciate beauty, until I witnessed it through a lens.  It’s amazing that now, I can actually SMELL those roses by just looking at a photograph.

I have to thank Mother Nature for providing me with such a wondrous canvas in which to flex these budding wings.

– L

  • karrie2 April, 2007 - 12:23

    Good luck with getting everything off the ground. Your photographs are gorgeous!

  • Granny Gloria30 March, 2007 - 16:27

    From your Mom, who is an old granny … THANK GOD FOR THE INTERNET! I love the internet! I get to see my two Norwegian grandsons anytime I want, and watch them grow up in a way, which beats pictures through the snail-mail! And Lisa, you taught me to do one of my favorite pasttimes online … SHOPPING!

Actually, I started my first ‘blog’ in 2002. Back then blogging wasn’t a term (I mean, who truly wanted to know that Josey’s auntie lost 10lbs on nothing but slimfast and diet tab?), so I kept a journal of my first pregnancy, and all the barfing and peeing that goes on in that 9 month span 🙂 .

Fast forward to the year 2007 and everyone and their great grandmother’s are blogging these days. Have a political vent. Blog it. Want to help make breastfeeding normal? Blog it. Blogging has become the internet’s soapbox, and all bets are off!

Now, I’m 2 children richer and find that my thoughts, like my life, are a jumbled mess.  So, I jumped on the blogging bandwagon. Why you may ask? Well, because I’m brilliant and everyone will wait with baited breath to hear what I have to say.  ….bwaahahahaha.

All joking aside, I feel that blogging my journey in photography and life is a good way to harness those inner demons while giving me a vehicle to share my life with my friends, family and other photographers. Happy reading!

Lisa

  • Julie30 March, 2007 - 14:53

    Glad to see you bloggin’ 🙂 It’s addictive.

  • Andrea30 March, 2007 - 11:58

    Cool! I need to get a blog up as well (sis keeps pestering me)